Life or not, my fav movies I want to talk about

Abduction of Eden

I have been watching more and more movies about 'lost souls' people that lose themselves and struggle through life because of it.

This movie is about a teenager that gets abducted and she is forced into prostitution. Living in a prison type atmosphere. Given drugs and made to do things she does not want to do.   This girl eventually does what they wish, not that she had much of a choice, but she is smart and she becomes a part of the system, not because she wants to harm the other girls, but because she is a survivor and she does what she can to bring the operation down. anyway, yada yada yada the part that makes me cry is when she gets free and after a couple of years she goes to a phone, tries to call her parents, but she hangs up. She sees herself in the reflection in the payphone. She calls back again and says hello to her mama but she still sees herself and thats all she can say. To me she feels so ashamed that who could want to see her now after what shes done.  Thats how I feel in life and when I see movies like that it really gets to me.  Shes the way she is and did what she did because others made her do that, but she doesnt understand that.   To me thats the saddest thing in life.  I know I didnt do the movie justice here, as I am not really a writer. 

At the end, there is a wonderful sad song by Sharon Van Etten  called "Love More"
Haunting lyrics as well...

Chained to the wall of our room
Yeah you chained me like a dog in our room
I thought that's how it was
I thought that we were fine
Then the day was night
You were high you were high when I was doomed
And dying for with no light with no light

Tied to my bed
I was younger then
I had nothing to spend but time on you
But it made me love it made me love it made me love more
It made me love it made me love it made me love more

Do what you said the words she said left out
Over unto the sky where I'll soon fly
And she took the time
To believe in to believe in what she said
And she made me love she made me love she made me love more
She made me love she made me love she made me love more

Pondering....

As I get older, I find I understand things less and less. No matter how I get a handle on things, they always end up slipping out of my grasp. Sometimes I sit in the park for hours watching people, wondering what their lives are all about. Wondering if they too are as unsure about life as I am. Its amazing to think, in just my little corner of the world, the people I see everyday, they have their own lives. For the most part, nothing i do throughout my day involves them at all. Yet we do things that change someones live even for the slightest... such as a smile, a hello, holding a door for a stranger, so many things we do slightly make up others lives, and yet, the world really is so huge. So many people all doing their own thing. How many people would even notice me not in the world? When I think of it that way, its pretty scary. I dont like the answer.  But such is life. Some say life sucks then you die, others think of a wonderful afterlife. Me? I just try not to think....  Welcome to my little spot on the world. Can I get you anything?